Then I realized that my situation and theirs are actually the same. We are suppose to set the pace for others to follow. However there is a big difference here. In the case of Queen Elizabeth and Dalai Lama, they are at the top of their hierarchy while I am probably nonexistence in the organizational chart.
So the question is, how do I influence others to act? After all I am a free radical. Well, the answer is not that straightforward. My influence [down] (don't) come from my ability to mobilize my resources; I hardly have any resources to start with. The only thing I have is personal power.
Therefore my real power is to utilize my knowledge in various areas of expertise so I can leverage others to act. In that sense I am exercising my power of thought to get things done.
So I guess in that case the quality of my thought matters. Otherwise I don't have the credibility make people believe.
Since I had Bipolar Disorder, credibility was always an issue for me. It doesn't help at all that I have intermittent mania and mood swings.
So how do I create credibility then? There's no other way then to walk the talk. I must lead by example. The burden of proof lies in my action, not my words. There are so many smooth talkers. The[r]e are people who, like me before, earn their keeps merely by the gift of the gab.
I was once like that.
To be able [to] to do that you must make sense. Well, what if I am no longer sensible? What if I am talking from outside the paradigm? How do I make my[] credible?
There is no other way except to prove that I am worthy of my words. To do that, I have to be the n=1 in my own experimentation.
Hence, although I do spend a lot of time talking to you, the true test of the pudding is in the eating.
Until I am successful in my own personal endeavor, there is no point really to talk about External Affairs. I need to win my personal victory before I win the public victory.
Let us go back to what Munek was saying:
I think uve won the war. So ure back to your normal self.
Therefore if I take that as a cue, then I can only rebuild my credibility by proving that I can win the Personal Battle over my own shortcomings.
Rather than thinking about solving the global issues, I should be solving my personal issues. If I can solve my own problems then only it makes sense for you to listen to me on external matters.
If even my personal matters I cannot solve, what makes you think I can solve the world's issues?
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That's when the 1,000 days in lesson for discipline counts. I can look at it from two angles:
- The first angle is I had gone though the 1,000 days in my mid thirties and now I am 2/3 of my way to my 10,000 days as a Grand Master.
- Another angle is to take it that I am starting fresh with the Statue of David Project and my Mastery is when I achieve my goal in implementing the MME & LLF Principle in my life.
The only way to deal with this is to live through it. I cannot say that I am entirely mature. Nor I am a completely innocent baby.
Where does the answer lies? None other than in Fuzzy Thinking. I am exactly a the Point of Paradox of apple and no apple. You can discard the apple as rotten and wait for no apple to bloom into a full apple in the next 3 years. Or we can start at this very point and propel to the next trajectory point. That way we use the past 20 years as the slingshot.
The only thing is, you must trust in my judgement as a Shokunin Kurina again. I know where to go Sarah. I am Al Wajid (the Finder). What you need to do is follow the Flight of the Wild Geese. You must allow the last goose to come forward to take over from the lead goose.
Then continue with the rotation. This is a long haul. We need a flight formation. Trust me on this honey. We have set sail for the next 22 years. While I am chiseling my Statue of David, you must take the helm. That is because, as I focus on the Universe Within the external universe will be effected.
You must trust my judgment Sarah. You must believe wholeheartedly that I am the Almighty and I know where I am going. That way you won't second guessing my action anymore. You must move towards enlightenment like The Poems of the Path.
What I don't want to be doing is Talk Cock Sing Song and at the end nothing happens like what is happening to Els and TraXX. As I said, my most valuable asset is my time. I don't want to waste it on some nonsense polemics. I want to see results.
If not I better focus on my Statute of David Project.
My hotspot is running low. Until they solve this broadband issue, our Cybernetic Loop is at the mercy of the data quota. Bear that in mind.
I might not be able to talk to you as frequent as I wish. So I expect for you to take the lead in the Flight of the Geese.
Later baby... I need to get ready for dinner. Today I eat normal. I feel a bit fatigue..
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