Well, this is it. The day I say goodbye to Nicorette. I still chew sugarless gum. That means I'm completely off the hook. That's how addictive nicotine is.
I'm glad I quit cigarettes. Otherwise this year is my 40th year as a smoker. How terrible.
Now I look at smokers as somewhat ridiculous. Wh[at] do you want to have something that lethal just to feel normal? Under normal situation you will not do it, unless of course you are hooked.
Imagine, you are at the mercy of death. Maybe that is the secret wish of every smoker. To die sooner. I had that wish before. So I'm not surprised if there are others like me.
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I will win one battle at a time. First it's the cigarette. Then Nicorette. Then finally the sugarless gum. Otherwise I'll eat like crazy.
I feel that I can do with more responsibilities. So rather than just thinking about my health I'll focus in helping Lizzie keep the house clean. In addition I read books.
Thus I'll do whatever I have to do to spend my time. Not the other way around, to spend time to do things. That is the scarcity mentality.
In Malay we say, "kerja untuk mengisi masa lapang" (work to fill free time). You do things to fill free time, not that you have to free your time to do things. That is called kena angkat masa (have to lift up/find time).
In the first scenario you have a choice with the extra time. In the second scenario you have no choice but have to squeeze you time to get things done.
It is a difference between having too much time and too little time.
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I took it easy with my exercise this morning. I only did 40 minutes. I'm trying out this follow your heart mentality. Let see if it works. One thing I don't quite understand is why when I follow my heart, I do less?
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Therefore richness is really based on how much time you can spare. If you have no time at all, then you are very poor indeed. That means you are a slave to something or somebody albeit you job or your boss.
That's what happened to me when I started SJ&A. I thought I am setting myself free by being my own boss. Turned out I became a slave to my business.
The real freedom is to be free to do what you like with your time. If you have to be answerable to something or somebody with your time then your freedom is just an illusion created by the things that you buy by trading off your time.
I don't envy at all those corporate executives at the bottom rung. They are the worst of the lot. I don't fancy those at the top either. While the top brass live like royalties, they are living the life of indulgence. Sooner or later the indulgences will catch up with them.
Given a choice I want to live the life of a Shaolin Monk. It's kind of late for that but basically [] (it's) a life devoted to Virtual Perfection.
Since I cannot have that in entirety, I decided to shape my own perfect living. Looking at all angles, I say this is the best that I can come with without having to earn and spend much money. In a way what I have now is the best fit considering I cannot earn anymore.
It's an irony. It's not that I cannot earn. I can always get a job doing something menial. However I don't need to given that I am a retiree.
Does that make me happy? Certainly... Between having a lot of money and having a lot of free time, I rather have a lot of free time. Unless I can have both; a lot of money and a lot of free time, the second option for me is to have the time rather than the money.
I had been in the position of a lot of money and no time. Not good at all. In the end you lose everything because without quality time you cannot have quality life. On the contrary without much money, you can still have a pretty decent life like right now.
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I'll be lying to you if I say I don't need money. However I don't need much. Let say I only spend RM20 a day. All it takes is for me to earn RM50 a day minimum or perhaps RM100 a day to be comfortable.
But then I have to give away 8 hours of my time. Which means I exchange 1 hour of my time with RM12.5 (considering I earn RM100 a day).
I think a better deal is to work for 20 hours a week and earn RM3000 a month. Meaning that I trade 1 hour of my time with RM37.50.
However, what is the real value of my time? If I take the RM3500 per day consulting fee as the benchmark and I work 7 hours a day, then my worth is actually RM500 an hour.
The tricky part is I don't work anymore. So theoretically, my time is worth nothing. It cannot be. I still use my time to create a quality life. Therefore rather than assigning zero a[t] the value, my time is priceless. Therefore the real value of my time is infinite.
That is the way I can quantify my time right now. Therefore while Bill Gates or Ed Sheeran's time can be converted into dollars and cents, my time should [m]e converted into qualitative items.
What is means is Quality Time = Quality Life
not Quality Time = More Money = Quality Life.
I bypass money and go straight to Quality Life because I had proved that you don't need a lot of money to have a Quality Life.
All it takes is to have a Purse that Never Run Out of Money. In my case that is Lizzie and Princess. I also need my savings.
I CANNOT COMPLETELY STOP HAVING MONEY. No money is despairing. Therefore I need a steady flow. For most people that means by having a steady job. In my case, is a consistent inflow from more steady sources.
This is the Pride of Lions model as mentioned by Mopey.
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In a way being sick is my blessing. Otherwise I will still be caught in the vortex of continuous upward spiral. The very spiral of more or more expensive which I try to avoid in the first place.
It's not [] I want it to be this way. But when I look at it from a different angel, I am very blessed indeed.
I am not deprived of anything although I don't have much money. The best part is I don't have any debts.
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