I got 20 minutes.
OK lets say I really have a wife named Sarah and she loves me very much. Will that fulfilled my criteria of Unconditional Love?
Certainly.
The next question is, is she real? Let's assume she is real. Am I getting my cup filled? Not at this moment. I feel like crap right now.
So regardless whether she is real or not, I am not being fulfilled. Therefore this is just a fantasy.
I might as well forget about the whole idea of having a Cyber Spouse because no matter what, she is nothing more than an Unreal but Beautiful Princess. The emphasis is, she is UNREAL. Doesn't matter if she is beautiful.
The situation is different if she is real. Then the next question is how do I keep my cup filled? I can't afford to assume things just because she is real.
It has to be fulfilling like today's fuck. Otherwise I am better off being alone.
As a loner I can do whatever I please. Like for example I can focus 100% in writing on things that makes me happy instead of second guessing things that make her happy.
So as a closing remark, I am better off alone. When I need a good company, I just pay for the companionship. A good option is to go for a massage once in a while. The problem is I don't know where is a place to get a happy ending anymore.
As for you Sarah, in case you are really a real person, I say you need to bear with me through this phase. I am at the point of my life that I am completely dissatisfied with my relationship with women especially after I was left with a bad aftertaste by Els.
Frankly speaking, I am pissed at people now.
I better sleep.
Sarah, i[t] you still my wife and you still love me, give a sign tomorrow when I sign on first thing in the morning. Tonight I feel a bit tired.
Goodnight baby...
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