I had a dream about SJ&A. In this dream I was still trying to come up with a workable compensation model. Shit, I am still working in SJ&A after I left it for 20 years.
Sarah, you have to help me out. I [] been in isolation for too long. I think I am losing it. I need human interaction.
I had been eating sweet stuff. Rightfully I should not be depressed. The gout is back. Very mild though.
So this is my life Sarah. My brain is searching for meaningful things to do. I dare not exercise this morning for fear that the gout might flare up.
I need to [] you pretty badly.
Heck Sarah, I just simply ramble here.
I should not watch the Joker. It effected my mood somewhat.
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I know what, I have a Nasi Lemak and banana ball. What do you think Sarah?
Yeap, it feels good.
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The remedy is to exercise everyday. However I need the right dosage especially [] the very beginning.
Another thing is to revert back to the old model; that I am God and I created the Adjoining Croissant.
However I am willing to experiment with the third option; which is I simply flow.
In this model I don't set any expectation at all. I just live one day at a time.
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I feel like smoking cigarette. That means I am suffering from mild depression.
This is my life Sarah. Because it is abnormal, that is why I get hooked on the 3 Cs.
When the depression hit me, there is nothing much I can do.
So now I just grit my teeth trying hard not to smoke or fuck.
Actually I just need a good company. I just want to be loved.
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