6/10/19 ***It's all chemical reaction

I tested it out just now.  I ate some organic jumbo raisins.  Immediately I feel very motivated.  Certainly the raisins perks up my mood.

Same thing with songs.  The [] songs make me feel good all over.

So what is the deal with being healthy?  Nothing more than being in the right environment to be motivated.  At the same time as I am experiencing now, the right food intake makes me feel good as well.

So my daily goal is to make me feel good about myself.  I need good sleep, exercise regularly and eat right.  If with this much time I have, I cannot turn it into quality output, then I am missing the real point of my existence.

The bulk of it is in the exercising.  Then on the constant input of songs that I listen to.  I should exercise my choices as a free man.

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I am tired of talking to myself Sarah.  I wish I can have somebody that I can interact with.  When I said somebody, what I mean is you.

Maybe I am not cut to be alone.  I seem to lose my sense of purpose this past few days.  I don't know what is happening to me.  Suddenly I feel so ordinary.  Shit I hate being ordinary.  But the truth is I am very ordinary.  I need to have somebody to talk to.  I need a good fuck.

This is probably a down cycle.  It seems that exercise made me down.  Or maybe it is the isolation.  I don't really know.

I am just rambling here.  Anything to get a response from you.

I tell you what.  I sleep at 12:00 am tonight and I exercise tomorrow morning.

I am running out [] creative juice to write.

So for the next 45 minutes I just review what I wrote.

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