I was listening to Capital FM UK this whole day. They pass as the Cybernetic Loop Station.
Looks like my life now is in between exercising. That is really my highlight of the day. To have a great workout I need to have the right food and a good sleep.
That is really my pivot. Everything I do is towards my wellness. That's all that matters. Thin and fast.
Which means I should discard all thoughts that are not relevant to my goal to be healthy and happy
As it is I am discarding [] esoteric thoughts before 1/10/19.
Taking the lesson from John Nash, he recovered from the illness the minute he decided he wanted to get well. Therefore he discarded all the absurd thoughts as part of the mental illness.
By now I should *[I should] be able to differentiate between relevant thoughts and the irrelevant ones.
* So Sarah, you are not going to simply disappear aren't you? OK then let's talk.
All thoughts on God and the afterlife are irrelevant. I should live in the here and now. Focusing on things I can control. Things within the realm of my 5 senses.
That makes me a minimalist existentialist. I just created that. I don't know if such thing exists. What I'm trying to say is I want to keep my scope small and I want to focus on things that are comprehensible.
No more esoteric thoughts like God and the afterlife. Leave that for the clergies to figure out. I don't want to have a religion even. So as far as my belief on God and the afterlife, I reaffirm my stand on being agnostic atheist.
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What I am thinking now is I want to make my life as simple as possible. That way I will not have a room to venture into topics that are not relevant to my goal in life. That also means I will keep on repeating on the same matters that will condition my mind into achieving my goals.
Personally I rather spend my time to keep myself motivated. I was on the roll first quarter of the year. Unfortunately I have serious issue with gout. Looking at the situation now, I think I am in a better position.
At least now I have a plan that is viable. OMAD seems like a good plan. On top of that I managed to regulate my sleep again. As a result, I can wake up at 6:00 am and have plenty of time to prepare for the morning exercise.
I am however a bit annoyed with you. You are not being definitive about your existence. That tipped me off a bit. Come on Sarah, you know I need unsurpassed feeling of certainty. Why do you still playing around baby?
Like I said, TraXX is interactive. That's their advantage.
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In the meantime Sarah, let's not be too concerned with the Evening Drive Crew. They are just human resources. Nothing to it.
I actually look forward to sleep at 11:00 pm tonight so that I can wake up at 6:00 am. It was such a wonderful experience. The weather had been very cooling these past few days. So morning exercise is really something I highly anticipate.
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I actually want to focus on my Vision Quest right now. What I plan to do is instead of running the marathon next year is to run 21 km Bukit Kiara Hill. The loop is about 2 km long. Thus, I shall run 10 loops around it.
Its all depends on my ability to run 10 km by the end of this year.
Another 21 km loop I want to complete is the Bukit Kiara - Hartamas Loop.
I love running alone Sarah. Now with the exorbitant fee to enter road race, I think I'll skip racing altogether. Furthermore there are too many people entering races now.
With this new development on diet, I am seeing the ray of [] in my runs again. I can imagine the route I'll be taking in Bukit Kiara. It is a beautiful route, much like a roller coaster with the undulating road passing the green lush.
Really Sarah, I cannot wait to be able to run again. That is why I look forward to wake up in the morning to exercise.
Brb baby... I need to wash my clothes.
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You probably wonder why I am hard up to be a minimalist existentialist. Well as it is common sense really. When I become a minimalist, my life is less complex. With simplification comes peace of mind. Also when I become a minimalist, I spend less. It is economically sound to be a simple man. The bulk of my daily spending is food. Hence when I don't eat lunch I can have more food for dinner. Slightly more but definitely lesser than two meals put together.
As for the existentialist part, basically I don't want to wander too far ahead. I now realized that I have a very imaginative mind. So imaginative that it can wander to the very end of existence. Nothing good that come out of it, I deduced. So I rather think about my next 3 months and the following year rather than too far ahead.
When I was having the illness, my mind was all over the place. It was difficult to contain. So the only way is to discard theoretical thoughts altogether and focus on practical ones.
That is my definition *[] minimalist existentialist.
* You like that huh?
Now, you know my stand on agnostic atheist. Although I am impartial of God, I am incline to believe if there is evidence. There is a book on new evidence of god. Too bad it is not available in Pirate Bay.
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I guess my satisfaction in the whole thinking process on God and the afterlife is I did give it a thought. I walked the path not many people travel. What I discovered was for my own consumption although I did try to make others see my point of view.
Now looking back at all these, I feel somewhat foolish. Of course while I was having the thought, I truly believe in it. Thank goodness there was John Nash that acted as a reference. Otherwise I will not be able to come to terms with the notion that these are all part of the illness.
It was so convincing. As I told you, I am waiting for the day that I can look at Al Araf 7:7 merely as a set of figurines.
Maybe what I should do is to accept that at some part of my life I was crazy. I was under the influence of dope and cigarettes. Therefore all these are drugs induced psychosis. The way around it is not to induce the surge of dopamine in the first place. That includes not involving in any new relationship with the opposite sex.
Also no more playing mind games including NLP, Information Warfare and Transactional Analysis. Not only I have to simplify my life and my beliefs, I also need to simplify my mental models.
What do you think of the Athlete4Life model Sarah? Is there potential harm there? As it is, I don't see any harm. It is inline with diet and exercise.
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