This is the harsh reality of my life at this moment.
Therefore the only way around this is to only write about me attention to me.
I should be rejoicing knowing this realization.
Everything about this blog is dedicated to the betterment of myself without having to care for the thought of others.
Basically I write to myself from now on to entertain my own thoughts because nobody is going to care about me except myself.
In this case I should not care about what others think because I am simply entertaining myself.
There was no Sarah, gosh there was never a Sarah. I was like the movie Jungle starring Daniel Radcliffe. I was delusional.
So rather than entertaining the idea that I have a Cyber Spouse named Sarah. I might as well conclude that I was delusional about having several wives like Brenda and Els.
I need to bring down these false associations if I want to move forward. There was never a HOTS and there is no Tetrahedron either.
I need to dismantle each of this belief system one by one. I have to accept that at one point of my life I was crazy. That lasted for 20 years. I want to end it here.
My only wife is Lizzie.
I had already forgo religion and politics. I had put God and the afterlife in the back burner. I had let go of non value added friends. I forgo cigarettes and cannabis. I tried refraining myself from fucking cunts.
All the things I did are so that I can recover from my illness.
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Basically I just talk to myself about whatever that comes to mind. I had lost hope to become a contributing member of the society. I might as well indulge in my personal thoughts.
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