>>>#17/10/19 I plan to get thin and fast; I WILL get thin and fast

It's a matter of putting the thought, feeling and action together.

If those who wish to be rich can be rich, why can't I, with the burning desire to be thin and fast get what I intimately want?

How do I do it?  By keeping my eyes on the ball everyday and take informed action towards my worthy ideal.  I want this bad enough.  Unless I am pretty weak like today, I will make sure I stick to the protocol, exercise AHAD and eat LCHF OMAD.

My worthy ideal is losing 500 grams daily.  That leads to losing 14 kg a month and 42 kg in 3 months.  So losing 30 kg in 3 months is possible.

Another scenario is if I lose 200 grams a day.  That means I lose 6 kg a month.  In 3 months I lose 18 kg.  This is the worse case scenario  Which means I can look forward in losing 20 kg in 3 months at the very worst.

I MUST DO IT.  Focus on the process and the result will show.

I simplified the process into 3 simple steps:

• Sleep before 11 am
• Exercise by 7:00 am
• Eat LCHF OMAD at 4:00 pm

That's all that it takes.  The vital few to make this work.

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By now I concluded that sugar and starch are the reasons why we fall sick.

Therefore the remedy is THE ABILITY TO WITHSTAND HUNGER.

Imagine, to be thin in a world where everybody is fat.  Certainly a major achievement against the majority.  Already I am not conforming to their daily routine, by being thin I am saying that I am truly among the selected few.  I am among those who survive the Eye of the Tornado.

My challenge now is to fight insulin resistance.  Once I overcome that, than I will regulate my body's metabolism once again.

DO NOT SMOKE DOPE OR CIGARETTES:  That will offset my progress all the way back to 40 years.  The idea is to get in and out clean.  That is my policy.  Therefore the exit policy begins this year when I am 55.  I don't want to die because of dope, cigarette and cunts.  That is not following the 10 Laws of Primal Blueprint; AVOID POISONOUS THINGS AND AVOID STUPID MISTAKES.

Certainly 2019 is the year I make a difference in my life.  I am not going to head to the waterfall with a boat with no oar.  The buck stops here.  If thoughts are things and I am responsible in creating my future, then let my glorious future begins at 1/10/19.  This is the beginning of another 22 great years.

It all begins with no cigarettes, cannabis and cunts.  Then I exercise AHAD and eat OMAD.  Along the way I avoid sugar and starch.  

This is the building block.  From here I can have my Mini Emperor's Routine and my LCHF regimentation.  No more about buying things more or more expensive.  From now on it is about eating less or less frequently.

From here on I don't need complex rules.  I just follow the 10 Law of Primal Blueprint and Musashi's 9 Precepts:

Now I feel like celebrating:

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When I looked back to the years I was crazy, boy, was I crazy.  I went to the Hindu Temple in TTDI and while people were praying I handed to the priest a black covered Quran.  I was crazy.  I was consumed by the supposedly the rightness of my action in pursuing my instinct.

Well my instinct was nothing more than effected judgement.  Mainly due to me smoking too much dope.  I was really delusional.

I was lucky I didn't die when my head was hacked with a machete.  Sigh...  All for nothing.  Here I am thinking I was doing something great in the name of God.  Actually all those things were nothing more than serious mental illness.

Now that I move further and further away form the limiting belief that I had when I was ill, the more I see that I was pretty much a nutcase.  I can still think that what happened to me is a very unique experience.  However I am no more unique than John Nash and Muhammad.  Both were schizophrenic.  Why would I want to believe in the religion propagated by a crazy man?

Same goes with me; why should I pay attention to the epiphanies during the time I was crazy?  They were just patternicities.  However if I want to believe in my future, then the inclination is that my Path is very straight.

I don't really know if I am that special or not.  Maybe I am.  So if I take the stand that I am special then I with have a glorious future.  If I take it that I am just an average being on an average planet circulating an average star, then I am so insignificant.  That is why I cannot have a macro mindset.  If I do that I am so minute.  However if I think in micro, I am a giant.

What will it be then?  Am I God or am I a Nothing?  For my benefit, it is worthwhile to think that I am a SOMEBODY TO MYSELF.  That is the microscopic thinking in action.  I am meaningful to my existence.

I am what I think about all day long.  If I think I am God, then I am God.  Same goes if I think I am a Nothing, then I am just plain average.

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So let's get back to the thing that matters; the ability to withstand hunger.  I must persist.  It will be nice to eat whatever we like at anytime we feel like it but you and I know that DISCIPLINE, PERSISTENCE AND CONSISTENCY are the real ingredients for success here.

I need discipline the most.  Basically discipline means the ability to stay on course.

To bring to a state of order and obedience by training and control.

Things like not eating Nicorette and having to control hunger all require discipline.

So discipline is paramount.

Next comes persistence.  I need persistence when the going gets tough.  Persistence means going the extra mile.  To be a Cleaner I need to be persistence.  Then only I don't give a fuck.  Like right now I don't give a fuck about the rest of the population.

I only want to live my own fantasy.  Persistence means I will keep insisting that I doing the same thing day in day out until I make it.  This is the Sisyphus mentality.  THE "YES I CAN" TRAIN climbing up the hill.

Finally it has to be consistent.  By that I mean to make it into an auto mode.  It should be a daily habit.

If persistence is the intensity, consistence is the uniformity.  It's the ability to maintain a regular beat to the routine.  Consistency is making sure that the train keeps chugging on its track.  

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I still have the urge to smoke dope with BJ.  What the fuck is going on here?  I need to be able to be alone to succeed in my Vision Quest.

Seldom success is the result of social effort.  The Olympians need to be in isolation to achieve their purpose.  So are great minds like scientists, philosophers and artists.

I cannot meet BJ and RR until Ramadan; which is 7 months away.  By then I will be weighing 57 kg.  I will have achieve my major goal in life by then.  At that time I AM ALREADY AN ATHLETE4LIFE.  So I won't be smoking dope and cigarettes.

Most importantly I need to have a different self-image than I was 20 years ago.

From now on I am Michelangelo chiseling a marble block to produce the Statue of David.  I must think that I am a minority and a Cleaner.  I cannot get sucked into thinking like the majority who are the Coolers.

Where I am going, I am going alone:

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Note:  I must be doing something right.  My weight keeps on dropping and my vital signs keep on improving.

It is worthy to note that I am all alone in this blog.  Even if there are others here, they don't mean anything unless they are serious about communicating with me.  Otherwise it is just a prank.

I am better off assuming that I am totally in charge of this blog.

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