Back to the fundamental, which is the ability to withstand hunger.
I wonder how long do I have to wait before the urge passes. I am sure if I refrain myself from eating the urge will go away.
I can understand if I am hungry. This is not hunger, this is just the desire to eat because the food is there. This is the reason I munch. Seldom because I am hungry. It's more of my desire to put something inside my mouth.
So I am testing out to see how long this urge will last. At the same time I am [] Nescafe Kosong (without sugar).
The mindset that I should have is once I eat my meal, I no longer eat for the day.
Oh damn, I lose to temptation.
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OK fine. This is much improvement from my previous eating protocol. No Nescafe Tarik, no Buah Melaka and no double servings of rice for dinner.
I'm not going to be critical about it Sarah. At best it is still OMAD with 2 hours eating window. At worst it is intermittent fasting of 20 hours fasting.
I however want to celebrate with you this achievement. How about I spin you a song honey?
Here goes:
For whatever reason, I won't give up on OMAD. Just like I won't give up on you Sarah.
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Sarah my darling. You know I love you very much and I am honored that you are willing to hangout with me all this while.
I have to say that beginning this month my focus is to achieve the personal goals I set for myself. Do you like this new development? Pretty grounded I must say.
I want to be thin so bad baby. I want it so bad that I am willing to pay the price for it. I will eat OMAD for the next 3 months.
I know it's not much of a goal to shout about, but hey, that is my primary focus right now.
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Suddenly I am very motivated after the croissant. My mood is extra good right now.
I think tomorrow morning, I'll make an effort to run. I may not run far, but I think I just run and see how long I can last.
Seriously Sarah, I feel like a million dollar right now. Nothing is going to rain on my parade.
The gist of it is, I managed to withstand hunger without much hangups.
Best of all, I feel great.
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So here is the deal. You got to be who you want to be before you can get what you want.
Lesson from Relentless: "In order to have what you really want, you must first be who you really are"
So the rationale is I have to be happy in order for [b]e to have a thin body and a 4 hours marathon.
That's what I am focusing now. To be happy, I just be who I am. Not somebody that I am not.
As I told you, I'm a writer. It is my job to write even if what I write is elementary. As far as I am concerned, I am having fun.
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I have nothing better to do.
#traxxfm Hey baby, it's nice to hear your voice. Evening Drive won't be the same without you. Can you spin The Man by the Killers? I am in the mood to chill this wet Wednesday evening.
As I said, nothing is going to rain on my parade today. I am super happy. Is it due to the food that I eat? Perhaps...
Now imagine I am 30 kg lighter and succeeding in my quest to run 10 km by the end of this year. Wouldn't it be great Sarah?
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I guess the lesson I got so far from this shitty treatment I get from Els is no matter what, I am responsible for my own happiness. So I just bulldoze my way through. Simply don't give a fuck about a prima donna wannabe.
Some people are good at lips service. So fuck them
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I went to the hospital today to get my medicine. When I looked at all the sickly people around me, I said to myself, "Surely some of these people can avoid being sick if they only eat sensibly."
I am determined to be better tha[t] the majority who are in the hospital including some of the doctors as well.
So Sarah, I am back with the mindset of a Cleaner. I cannot expect other people to make me feel good. If it is to be then it is up to me
How about listening to 247 Continuous? I need a Success Formula by now. It cannot be a hit and miss issue. Let's decide once and for all to listen to 247 Continuous. What do you think?
For the morning session I more or less nailed it with Absolute Classic Rock. It's the evening that I have issues right now. I'll go with Capital FM UK. Yup, it's a better station.
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