19/10/19 I had a feast with chocolate and everything

Actually the chocolate is nothing more than  an excuse to eat sugar.

I rather have a dark chocolate, but I'll make do with what I have.

So today is OMAD.  I feel much better eating rice today.  Therefore  2 days LCHF OMAD and 1 day OMAD.  3:1 & 2:1 the whole week.

I wish I am more alert.  I feel a bit bored.  I kept thinking about Nicorette.  Once, it crossed my mind to call BJ.

Then I remember, these are all poisons.  Even sugar is poison.  Let alone Nicorette and dope!

I must fight these within this next 7 months.  This is really the testing ground until next Ramadan.

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No more buying stuff until April next year.

Do not get into the Hedonic Adaptation Trap.  Don't look for things to buy.

I should be saving up to RM1750 again.  That takes 3 months.

The key to happiness:

• To enjoy pleasures that doesn't cost money like Pornhub
• To live in gratitude like appreciating my watches, car, perfumes, Al Araf 7:7 and CCC even
• Wifi is a must
• Live below my means.  Do not breach the RM1000 emergency limit
• To eat less or less frequently
• To sleep well
• To sweat an hour a day
• To have plenty of time to do whatever I like
• To have a comfortable amount of money.  No money is despairing

Let me simplify happiness

• Doing things that I like
• Doesn't cost much money
• A lot of free time

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Actually I have the urge to eat.  Darn, I might as well eat.

Either I eat or I chew Nicorette.  I might as well eat.

I ate 4 peanut butter crackers and Nescafe latte.  That's it.  No dinner.

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2MAD is not bad at all.  I still skip breakfast and I exercise in the fasted state.

As I said, the prove is on the daily weight reduction.  So today is a little celebration.  I managed to go down to 88 kg.

I still cannot decide on what to do with Nicorette.  Basically I got to deal with nicotine withdrawal for a while.

Basically I try to overcome boredom and depression.

Nicotine withdrawal is real.  For how long do I want to be addicted to Nicorette?  I better stop ALTOGETHER.

THE DECISION IS:  NO MORE NICORETTE.  It is as addictive as cigarettes.

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Let's get back to the right perspective again.  My intention is to be well.  Hence I need to live clean.  No more substance.

I am a fighter.  I must fight these:

• The urge for cigarettes, cannabis and cunts
• The urge to eat sugar
• The urge to chew Nicorette.

The game has just begun.  Only DAY 3 without Nicorette.

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