I can be normal again. I need to identify the thoughts that makes me abnormal and purge that out.
Maybe what I'll do is I simplify my thinking. It should not be too complex. For example Al Araf 7:7 are just a set of figurines.
Often times I over speculate things. If I want to change I got to make things simple.
The issue here is I have a very active imagination. Isn't that a gift? The fact that I can write Royal Belum Adventure 2019 is an indicator that I am an imaginative person. Without the use of substance I am already quite high. With the introduction of dope for example I am in the state of psychosis.
Same thing with emotion. As it is I am already a person with an overflowing heart. With mania I am blown out of proportion into limerence.
I need to have my feet on the ground. Otherwise my active imagination can take me over the limit to the point that I am God.
Certainly there are the signs of a mental illness.
What does all this mean? None other than illusion of grandiose is a chemical reaction. That however does not address the question of God and the afterlife. It only states that I am not God. It is also an indicator for me not to deal with the abstracts.
For all you know I never battled Iblis. There is no Iblis in the first place. There is no Satan either and most importantly Muhammad himself is a schizophrenic.
What does that tell you about Islam then? That means 1 billion people had been duped to believe in a vision of one crazy prophet.
I like to say that there is no God and no afterlife but not believing is as good as believing because neither thought is beneficial for me at this present moment. Thus, to satisfy my believing mind, I choose to believe. As I reason out, to say that there is no go[t], I must know so many things that I don't know. Currently I am not half as smart as I want to be to say that I know so much even on the things that I know.
Therefore I just conclude that I DON'T KNOW that there is a God and an afterlife. These are matters that I KIV.
What I should be doing is to focus on things that I do know like how to be healthy and happy.
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Certainly thinking about God and the afterlife is not going to improve the quality of my life. I need to focus on thoughts that I act upon. These thoughts will then produce positive result on my life. I don't need God to have moral values. Certainly I don't need God to pursue Virtual Perfection.
What I need to do is to focus on perfecting my mind and body. I should follow the model of the Greeks. Even Stoic Philosophy is a better reading compared to the Quran.
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