It is self indulgence at its best or depending how you look at it, it is nothing more than senseless rambling at its worst.
Either way, I just want to immerse in my own thoughts about what I think is relevant to me.
So you can exit now if you want to. You don't have to listen to all these.
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Here I am with a mug of Gold Blend Tea by my side imagining things I will achieve this next 3 months.
For a start, I will not be listening to the local radio stations. I want to totally escape from the 3rd class mentality of a developing country. In the morning I will listen to Absolute Classic Rock. Then I will listen to 247 Continuous from 2 pm onward. In the evening I will listen to Capitol FM UK.
I want to insulate myself from thinking about local matters.
I will run in the morning little by little until I can run for one hour. Afternoon is when I do house chores. Sweeping mostly.
I eat my meal at 4:00 pm. Otherwise I'll wait for Lizzie to cook dinner. Whatever it is, I eat OMAD. I want to lose 30 kg and this is the way to do it. I am pretty convinced.
At 9:00 pm I read. I must keep on reading. That is my input from the 3%.
The aim is to have consistency. I rather run every morning then not being consistent at all.
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As a Cleaner, my focus is my personal pursuit. So I should be thinking about my performance *tha[t] to manage relationship.
* Hmmm... You still want to be a part of my rambling. Are you sure honey?
Els is a loss cause. Definitely. I rather go and fuck a Gaysha then spending money on her.
The entire TraXX is a loss cause. I should be focusing my mind elsewhere than harping on TraXX. As a listener I have so many choices to listen to.
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So where is this leading to? None other that in making me thin and fast. Along the way I am getting some input from the books that I read.
Initially I was thinking that I will feel miserable being in solitude. Actually I can create a self sustaining biosphere where I can thrive by being alone. All it takes it to have the right radio station as my cybernetic loop.
I am 92.2 kg today. If I lose 2 kg per week I will more or less achieve the bulk of my weight loss goal.
I have to achieve my goal no matter what. I managed to get rid of the 3 Cs. Now is to be thin and fast. I must do it. Everything is difficult before it is easy.
Matthew 16:26
For what will it benefit someone if he gains the whole world yet loses his life?
The 7 Beliefs:
- I decide to be happy no matter what. I am a Cleaner. A Cleaner is responsible for his own happiness. From now on I just focus on things that make me happy which include being by myself pursuing my Vision Quest.
- I am so blessed at this moment. Everything is going smoothly. I don't have debts, I have a new car, my time is my own and I DON'T HAVE TO FOLLOW THE CROWD!
- No matter what I just be who I am. I walk among the minority. I may be suffering from a mental illness. I will fight tooth and nail to be well again. I had made a conscious decision to walk alone.
- Yes I intend to lose 30 kg by the end of the year. This I believe I can do with OMAD. I don't even need Nicorette starting tomorrow. I start at point zero and move North.
- Well, I am a giver. I had given unconditionally. Now is to be kind to myself. By that I mean to give to myself by writing and creating positive thoughts to myself. I don't need approval from others to feel good about myself.
- Yes indeed I have an overflowing heart. So I give it to those that are deserving, my love ones. Namely my Tetrahedron.
- I do hope so. I look forward to a glorious future. I want to live life like William Gan. Healthy and happy at 73.
What's the point of living if I am sick and miserable? My ace is OMAD. With this protocol my mood had improved tremendously.
Think thin, be thin. No more sugar.
Nicorette spikes insulin. Even if I don't take food, my insulin is still high. Not only that, my micro biome will not flourish with artificial sweetener.
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