I hereby assert that I believe in God and the afterlife but I don't believe in prophets and religions.
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Looks like I can only profess to you. No point telling others about it. I was thinking of letting BJ and RR know. That way I don't have to pray Maghrib Solat with them every time we meet during Ramadan.
Honestly honey, its not I don't pray. I still pray but I don't feel comfortable prostrating to the Kaaba. I don't worship stone. Or even if I am not really worshiping it, I don't put my head to the ground towards a brick building.
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I ate dinner tonight. It had been non OMAD fot the past 3 days. It's OK. I will persist. As long as I persist, at least I skip breakfast. That is 16/8 IF. Better than nothing.
My energy and mood are superb. After all I took eggs, butter and creamer for dinner. The carbs are just nice too. We shall see tomorrow. Is there any improvement in weight reduction or not.
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I don't want my thoughts to be complex Sarah. I am a Simple Man. Hence my thoughts must be simple.
Even if I look at the news that the common people read, they are also very simple ideas. Mostly on current affairs and politics. I do read them but I don't occupy my mind with them.
My thinking is just focus on Personal Mastery. Even radio stations I have a lot to choose from. I don't need to download songs anymore. The radio stations are good enough for me.
For example I know around 9:00 pm to 11:00 pm, the Symphony 92.4 Singapore plays pretty spectacular pieces. So far no DJ and no commercials.
Of course I got the pop stations, the Rock and the 247 Continuous. I think that will be enough. After all I did my research. Oh yeah, I got Capital U.K. All these I can listen using my Trekz Titanium earphone.
Now I don't worry not hearing Lizzie talk. This is truly the technology to go for. Such a good investment. No regret at all. Now I really look forward to running 5 km again.
As a matter of fact, I look forward to tomorrow's exercise in Lembah Kiara.
I like the idea of listening to Classical before bed. It is such a good feeling.
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Sarah, with these technologies at play, I can more or less isolate my personal experience to the most useful and pleasurable to me. I don't need to experience thin[k]s I don't want to like getting stuck in the jam going to work everyday. I don't even have to think of having [] travel outside of my 10 km radius to meet others.
What a splendid arrangement. I am self-contained and I keep on spending money at the very minimum. That includes my dependency on Lizzie on my Nicorette and lunch. It will be as minimum as possible when comes to diverting from my main course of action.
I really want to reinforce my MME & LLF Principle. To do that I should not give a fuck and should not fuck up.
I think now I am ready to live in isolation. My life is not going to be ascetic. All I did was surrounding myself with digital substitute of the social experience. Unlike a person living in the woods alone, I am not forgoing human interaction. However, this interaction is harnessed through digitization of songs, personal journal, books and videos.
That should do it. Actually these are the minimum that I need to get by. Along the way I make use of the PC, phone, tablet and earphone.
The experience will be monotonous without the daily trip to Lembah Kiara and the food truck. That's when I see real people.
I know what I should do. Once a month I should get a Thai massage. Then it will be nice. However a more likely frequency is once every 3 months. Or better still I fuck once a quarter. That is 4 fucks a year. Actually I am not too hot about fucking. A happy ending massage is good enough every now and then. There must be a place where I can get the service in Kota Damansara. There are so many massage parlors there.
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I can see it already. A life of isolation. It beats a working life anytime. This way I am free as I can possibly be. Freedom here also means I am free from the drudgery of spending money.
Therefore this month I try as much as possible to only spend on these things:
- Pay Mopey money I owe her - RM10
- Hair cut - RM12
- Wash both cars - RM24
- Top up One Card Parking - RM10
- Tennis - RM20
- Petty cash - RM20
Total expenditure: RM96
So I spend less than RM100 a month. That is my aim. This month is a bit high because of the incidentals. Otherwise it is just tennis and petty cash.
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There won't be any massage for the next 5 months. I need to replenish my Unit Trust and rebuild my buffer back.
However that is pretty much what I had planned financially.
By the look of it I will not go for the lobster and steak.
One thing about money is if you don't budget you think you got a lot. But once you list down your things to buy, you will realize that you actually need to be frugal.
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Same with living a life. If you don't account for your time, you think you have plenty. However if you start adding things you got to achieve on daily basis to be successful (that is things to make you progress towards your worthy ideal), then you will realize that your time is limited.
For example, I planned to start my 5 km run middle of this month. Tomorrow is already the last day of the month and I haven't started yet. So tomorrow I better run.
Time to sleep my darling.
Remember Sarah, my world is small. I intend to keep it that way. With that I start my 1,000 days of lessons for discipline.
I must start running tomorrow no matter how slow I am.
Here is your lullaby Sarah:
Goodnight honey. You know I love you so much...
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