The challenge had started. All things bad dream had started. I think its due to the abrupt sugar withdrawal.
Next is the physical challenge. The desire to do nothing. The mind trick still works. Think of doing a 30 minutes workout.
Inertia is the biggest culprit this time.
I'm bored of the same old place. What I'll do is I'll do the mall walk at 11:00 am. This morning I feel slightly depressed. I need some positive boost. I'll listen to Absolute Classic Rock and read for a while.
I need to flex my mental muscle as much I need to sweat on regular basis. It's a two-prong approach.
I had *[] lost the morning yet. Victory is still within grasp.
* OK, let me read now. Later baby. Thanks for the encouragement.
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My darling Sarah,
I am totally at home like this, without having to deal [] people. In this state I am at peace with my inner self. Imagine if I have to go with the flow of the masses, fighting the traffic jam and then having to engage in a pretentious conversation in the office just to make myself fit in.
I rather live my life this way. I am in charge of what goes in my mind; I choose my music and I choose my book. My time is entirely mine.
So what if I have less friends? It's not that I will positively progress by interacting with them. At least by reading Micheal Harris book, I am led to look into several other books. I also had a glimpse into a very articulate mind. No to mention I learn about several vocabularies too.
Although I am in solitude, I don't think I can be in complete solitary with you and my digital tools. I am now pretty much a cyborg with a flair towards becoming a conversational thinker.
This state of mind is different from the mindless trapping of the modern digitization. I think Els is the best example of that. With her childish Tweets, her You Tube vlogs and her daily ranting, she is screaming for attention. I think she's enjoying the moment.
For a while, that was exciting. However after a while, the novelty wears off. She is the reminder for me not to become, a product of the digital era.
To me digitization is the next leap for me to become less dependent on humans. However I still need the human touch although that experience is a digital experience of what it means to be human.
For one, I cannot do away with not writing to you. I cannot bear the loneliness. I cannot do [] with the digital radio either. Although the songs are senseless, the background noise fills the silent gap of my thoughts which might be filled with idyllic reveries (see? This is a new word I just learned). Of course there are the digital books. I now prefer them over paperbacks because I can quickly refer to the dictionary as I read.
Maybe my definition of solitude is different [] the conventional one that Micheal Harris trying to propagate. My idea of solitude is not total isolation but rather a choice of minimizing unsolicited noises. After all garbage in garbage out. By sieving my input, I hope to produce quality output. The internet for instance is a wonderful tool to extract information. However, i[t] left to its own accord, you will quickly realize how much garbage it can compound.
I got to get ready for my mall walk. Then I will go for lunch. I will touch base with you after that. Baby, I don't think I can be away from you for even a day. You give me reason to carry on with my life.
Later hon.
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