15/10/19 ***The ability to withstand hunger for 5 minutes

That's all it takes.

So this afternoon, I drink hot tea with lemon.

Do nothing of no use.  Every day should make me move closer to my goal.

There is a difference between not eating some of the food all the time and not eating all of the food  some of the time.

What I'm doing is both.  I am taking out rice, sugar, bread and 3-in-1 coffee from my diet.  I am going LCHF.  At the same time I do OMAD.

Whatever it takes to get rid of 30 kg by December.

I hope by the time I meet Dr Amarpreet, I lose 20 kg.  Making me a 72 kg person.

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The Casio Illuminator is out of stock.  So I ended buying a G Shock 3 times the price.

I have to admit, this watch is a pure indulgence.  There is no justification for me to spend my money on it.  I simply want to buy a watch.  Whaddaheck, I love watches.

So this is the last purchase for the year.

I need to get used to not spending money

No more spending on others.  I basically wasted RM400 this year trying to impress the Evening Drive Crew.  That's part of the illness.  This purchase is also part of the illness but it was containable.  I nearly bought the RM680 watch.

This purchase is well justified though.  I really like the design and the purchase is still within range.  From now on no more spending on things besides food.

I need to cap at RM50 per month on petty cash.

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Actually the thrill is on the purchasing.  The ownership is nothing.  I need to be mindful of that.  I'm a shopaholic.  I enjoy spending money.  I should enjoy SAVING money.

Now I depleted my savings below the safety net.  Well, better than going for a fuck.  Better than giving RM1000 to my mom.  Better than buying more things to Els.

This is the last of my major purchase before Princess gets her bonus.

I have no intention of buying anything except food.  Other things I already have in excess.  Clothes especially.

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I looked at the things I bought and the things I should buy, I concluded I wasted a lot of money unnecessarily.

So many things I buy but I didn't use.  I better start using them.

The more reason why I should be thin.  When I am thin, there are so many clothes I can wear.

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