5/10/19 ^^^Now is to think like a normal person again

The best way to do that is to set a clear embarkation of what had happened the past 20 years and now.  What it means is to accept that none of the epiphanies as true.  Another way to look at it is by acknowledging that all that happened to me in the past 20 years is a done deal.  I completed that phase of my life and now to move to the next phase.

I like the second option better.  Along with it include all the presuppositions that I made including my relationship with Els and TraXX.  I should start fresh.  Much like a system reboot.

What do I want to move toward to?  What assumptions do I want to make?

• No more Information Warfare
• I am financially independent
• I no longer dependent on 3 Cs
• I am an Athlete4Life
• No more talks on God and the afterlife
• Trust the Path
• I am on the journey to be thin and fast
• No more External Affairs
• No more Dreams of Mirrors
• No more TraXX and Els
• Be healthy and happy

The past 20 years i[t] a state of mind influenced by the chemical imbalance of the neurotransmitters.  It is due to the unhealthy lifestyle I was leading.  Also due to the high level of uncertainty in trying to earn a living.

All that are no longer my lifestyle.  I am financially free and I am no longer addicted to the 3 Cs.  Now is to lead a healthy life.  It's time to be levelheaded.

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The first thing for me to do is to accept that I am mentally ill.  Hence my judgement was effected by the illness.

The second thing is [] have faith that it can be cured.  Just like I can get rid of the 3 Cs.

Thirdly, I must have a firm belief that I can live a[n] healthy and happy life.

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