Baby, don't you worry about me. I have many thoughts about the unknown. That doesn't mean a thing until we cross the bridge.
What counts is the notion of how we deal with the things that we know. For example we know that the ultimate in health and happiness is diet and exercise. So, what are we gonna do about it?
Another thing is we know that no money is despairing. Therefore what is our countermeasure?
Things like that you know... After all I am going on a 22 years journey. I better be prepared with my provisions.
Certainly I need to move away from taking poisons. I also need to be physically and mentally active. It is important to be frugal too.
This next 22 years will be a very somber life to live. It is the life of discipline, persistence and consistency.
I don't want to be reckless anymore. I want a very rock steady life.
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Honey, you must understand. I have 24 hours of my time for me to play with. I can do whatever I like with it. So certainly I'm not going to waste it on resentment. What's the point?
I want to celebrate my life without having to spend a bomb. I must consider that the money that I have on the Unit Trust are the only [] (amount) I'll ever get for the rest of my life. What do I spend it on? None other than my love for watches.
Forget about buying experiences. Those only live in the memory. Things I buy I can see, touch and feel. Whether it is experience or things, money spent is still money spent.
I decided to buy one more watch. That is the "Rasta". After that I will only spend on food. Like this afternoon, I ate Magnum Caramel Salted Ice Cream.
I think the most wasteful thing to buy is a story book. Unless you read it many times.
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You know Sarah, the best I should do right now is to enjoy this very life I got. I should be grateful with things that I have rather than things I don't own.
I don't want a complicated life. As far as I'm concerned, the past 20 years were very complicated. From this point on, I'll just focus on being simple.
My thoughts has to be simple. I have to offload the emotional baggage and really KEEP IT SIMPLE SHARUDIN.
Why think too far ahead? Just make sure I win one day at a time. That I make the full use of my 24 hours to be healthy and happy.
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I am experiencing a withdrawal symptom right now. I had been wanting to meet with BJ and smoke pot. At the same time I had been wanting to smoke cigarette. These are the nicotine withdrawal symptoms. I'll fight it for the whole month of November. Now it is 6 months to Ramadan. Not that long at all.
I must fight and win. As long as I am dependent on substances, I don't own my life. I don't even own my thoughts as long as my neurotransmitters are hijacked by the substances.
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So I'm going to let loose. I'm going to spend a little bit more money to get the "Rasta". Then I will be as frugal as I can be by spending only RM100 a month.
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I got to fight this nicotine withdrawal. Damn, I feel depressed.
If I can fight cigarette and dope, I can fight this too.
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Let's put it point blank. The key to health and happiness is the ability to exercise and eat clean EVERY DAY. I must stick to the Game Plan; AHAD and OMAD.
Say what you like Sarah. I think I found the Holy Grail here.
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