Friday, 1 November 2019

2/11/19 ###2MAD DAY 26 - I survived last night's binge

My weight dropped this morning.  I am all set to do the weighted walk today.

Without Nicorette, everything is very normal.  I better get used to the feeling.  I am back to being somber again.  The only stimulant I am on nowadays is coffee.

I will not even take sugar if I can help it.  Sugar makes me sleepy.  It is a drug.  As for November, I start my fight against sugar.  I have to end my dependency on Nicorette and my addiction on sugar beginning this year.  That will be my next marker beside quitting the 3 Cs.

I must persist.  Keep doing what Sisyphus is doing and keep pushing the limit like Icarus.  Never become complacent.

Everyday is a Continuous and Never Ending Improvement (CANEI).

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Today is fantastic.  I started the weighted walk.  It was like swimming.  I enjoyed it much but I only did it for 45 minutes.  Today is the first attempt.  So I took it easy.

After that I did 1 x  100 Skip Rope.  Need to work on that some more.  The execution is not smooth.

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I feel so relaxed after shower.  The same feeling I normally get after a rigorous workout.  Hopefully this feeling will last until lunch time.

I'm already looking forward to lunch.

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This is it Sarah, me being normal again.  No stimulant and no substance.  Very normal indeed.

I don't feel like writing anything honey.

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After lunch I felt the void of not having any Nicorette.  I felt like having some but I persisted to stay quit.  This has to stop.

The dark chocolate helps much.

Whenever I have the void, I start to think about smoking dope.  That means I am still not off the hook with substance dependency.

I must fight it.  This is Day 4 of the cessation.  I must think like an athlete, not a junkie. I'm already hooked for a year.  The prescribed consumption is 12 weeks.  I'm already passed that.

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