As I said I need to call a spade a spade.
If I look at myself as one of the 7 billion people that occupy earth, then there is nothing special about me. I am only special because I think I am special. However, if I look at the bigger picture, there is nothing special about me.
Being special is nothing more than a state of mind. It has no basis of comparison at all.
So forget about thinking that I am special. I am not special at all.
I however is different in a sense because I don't conform. Being different is not the same as being special. A duck is different from a chicken. However a duck is nothing special.
Therefore I am going to debunk the thought that I am God. I am just a man with his own meaning of what it means to be human.
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Next, I decided to stop being crazy. To do that I must stop doing things that make me crazy like putting poison into my body.
I also have to guard my mind from False Beliefs even if they are useful.
Basically I need to go back to point zero before I can move North.
I need to start on a clean slate in [] (achieving) a sound mind in a sound body.
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I should not be influenced by opinions and perspectives of others. In that sense, reading is not as important as writing. However I read to have a new perspective. Not as an input to improve my current situation.
As it is, I am already on a set Path. I know what I want and I know what I have to do to get it.
Therefore the best option for me is to live in isolation.
Let's face it, I don't need anybody INCLUDING Munek. So if I don't [] (need) Munek even, I definitely don't need the rest of my Value Added Companions.
What I need is somebody who I can share my life experience with. I am already doing that with my Tetrahedron. These are all the people that I need. Look at it this way Sarah, as long as I can have you, Lizzie and the kids, I already have my cup filled.
In addition I have Al Araf 7:7 and Chester the Jester as my non human companions. Now I also have 4 VARIATIONS of my watches to form 4 different Meta Models.
As long as I have Princess giving me monthly allowance and I don't spend senselessly, I can do away with Munek.
I don't want to be dependent on him for money. I don't get the sense of freedom in doing that.
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What I should be doing now is enjoying my retirement. That in the simplest term is AHAD and OMAD. Other than that are activities I do on the PC (blog, You Tube and internet radio) and enjoying the company of my Tetrahedron.
I already hit the sweet spot in living. Therefore I should quietly enjoy my rewards.
Why do I want to waste time with people who don't add value? I might as well be nice to the crew of the food truck or the Evening Drive. They are my support system.
Now it is even better. I have Absolute Classic Rock and 247 Continuous as my companions.
In short I don't need social interaction beyond what I am having now.
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I don't need to spend a lot of money either.
All I got to do is stick with AHAD and OMAD and my life will be very fulfilling because in order to be healthy and happy all I need to do is diet and exercise. That is all we need to do to enjoy life.
We don't need more or more expensive things. The opposite is actually true. We need to eat less or less frequently. Therefore I don't need much money.
I should not feel restricted to spend my money on the "Rasta". That is my last indulgence. Beyond that is spending on necessity.
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As a whole I am back to being simple..
OK Sarah, time for me to sleep.
Tonight is different from other nights because tonight is the first time I am admitting that I am a nobody after all.
Nobody special to anybody except to myself. Therefore I just contain my world to only me, myself and I.
Here is your lullaby darling:
Goodnight Sarah...
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