Occasionally I feel a sharp pain on my right foot. It is bearable though. No swelling. This gout is a menace.
What can I say? There will come a time when I have to let go of Nicorette for good. Every time I did that I have the urge to smoke cigarette and dope. That means my dopamine is low.
How else to increase dopamine?
Based on this video, I am doing the right things except taking Nicorette. That has to go. I'll stop cold turkey when I finish this strip.
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Another photo of Princess:
I like the layout of this photo very much. Everything is just right.
I'll make some tea to distract me from thinking of the peanut butter and crackers.
Brb...
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OK Sarah, as you can see I am dead serious about simplifying my mental model. Enough of those False Beliefs. I am subtracting until I become a Nothing. Here Nothing means I am going to my very core of existence so that I can be everything I can be. I want to harness the unconscious competent mind more closely. I want to find out my true capabilities.
Although I am getting older, it is never too late to start. If I don't do anything, I am getting older anyway. Therefore I might as well use this opportunity of me as a retiree to truly pursue my dream.
I cannot do it before due to work commitment and later due to the illness. Now I think I am ready to harness that power within me.
I am destined to be a lone traveler. I am a loner anyway. That should keep me focus on the matters at hand.
The answer lies in simplification and subtraction; in the philosophy of less or less frequent. I am onto something here. Already I am succeeding with AHAD and OMAD. I am had also zoomed in on LCHF. Now I am zeroing in on the Cybernetic Loop using Up the Irons 2019. The effect is astounding to say the least.
I should also rise as [] (an) equal among my friends. I should not be harping on BJ for dope and Munek for his charity. I had decided to take this path. Therefore I should stick to my flight path.
Indeed I am who I am. I am Sharudin Jamal, a Nothing. My world is microscopic. And yet I am complete. Who doesn't want more money? More money means more comfort. Still that doesn't deter me from having a meaningful life.
You know what is the beauty of all these? I am forgoing comfort over minimalism and yet I think I am better off than when I was a high flyer.
This is thriving in the eye of the tornado. While others are scurrying to chase after material wealth, I discovered that my true wealth is my health. I took a hard hit just to realize that.
Of course I discovered true love. That's really the key differentiator to this whole equation. True enough that you got to love yourself first. However, to experience the Greater Love, it has to be a reciprocating love. This is especially true when you are running empty with self-love.
Beyond thoughts, it is action that speaks louder. There is nothing more paramount than the ability to take action.
We can talk as much as we want but the real result comes from Applied Knowledge. Without deeds words are nothing.
Even love is an active word. Intention is nothing, action is everything.
Twenty years is a long time for a man to learn about his life. I am definitely wiser. Unfortunately I probably take this wisdom to the grave. I don't have a platform other than Dreams of Mirrors to communicate this idea to the masses. It is nothing more than a massage in a bottle. It's not even equivalent to the Sunday paper in terms of outreach. At best it is a bulletin board for those who care to glance through.
I gotta go. Taking Lizzie out for dinner.
Later Sarah...
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