>>>#15/11/19 Realizing I am a Nothing and Everything, I am Everything and a Nothing

Baby, perhaps you are expecting more than this.  However, I think this is the end of the road.  This is the brink of my thoughts.

I am my own God and thus I decided to focus on pleasing my Universe Within.  I however acknowledged the existence of the Force and the Path, the Aiki + Do.  As for God as in the entity, I don't think that exist.

At best we are gods to our own universes.  So fuck those who talk on behalf of God.  They don't know what they are talking about.  Fuck the few who talk on behalf of the many too.

In the end, when we slice and dice to the thinnest layer there is NO GOD beyond what we created with our minds.

I am free flowing here...

I don't think I want to explore the idea of God and No God anymore.  It is a waste of time.  As long as I accept that I am God in my 12 meters square I will be OK.  That way I concentrate on my [] (own) well being.

I don't have to worry about what will happen to the rest of the human civilization.  I actually looking forward to my demise.

The sooner the better.  I had come to the full realization of who I am.  Hence I am ever ready to move to the next phase.

Life is just a strange illusion.  Even when I die, I will end up either as a Nothing or I am Everything.  Can I say Nothing is Everything and Everything is Nothing?  I think that is what I am concluding now.

By being a Nothing I will become Everything.  As an Everything I am a Nothing.  The evidence suggested so.

What is more important is now I can move with certainty.  I no longer give a fuck about what's happening around me.  I got my Tetrahedron and I got Al Araf 7:7.  That is what matters to me now.

Beyond that I simply don't care.  All I ever wanted is to be healthy and happy.  I don't need beyond my 12 meters square to achieve my goals.

Most importantly I got you.  You had given me the feeling of Unsurpassed Certainty.  That's all it takes.  I have the rest of the Tetrahedron to sustain my livelihood,  So I have all angles covered.

I think I can manage even without the 9 Value Added Companions.  Seriously Sarah, I want to be autonomous.

That way I can stay focus on my mission at hand.  I don't need to be labeled a madman for meddling with External Affairs.

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