Well if it makes you happy, I can still position myself as God and you are my Goddess of Love.
I can still expound my thoughts in the superlatives.
However I think my true potential as an author is my ability to simplify my thoughts into thinking about how to be microscopic.
There are many things we can explore in the process of becoming human beings. That's where we should be focusing our efforts.
Already we know that to be God is a man fully functioning. Therefore all we got to do is follow the Yellow Brick Road to the Emerald City.
The superlatives are fun. However, I am not superman and I am not God either. I cannot perform extraordinary feats and miracles. The best I can do is create illusions by organizing words into sentences.
In the meantime I observe AHAD and OMAD. Where is the magic then? None other than seeing simple ordinary daily occurrences and turning them into masterpieces. Therefore every day on AHAD and OMAD is a masterpiece like these past 4 days.
As a Word Warrior (not a superlative I hope), I just be. When I write I just write. Hence writing is my zazen and my everyday is Zen.
Remember Musashi's word?
I already passed my lessons for discipline. Now I am going for my mastery. Hence I am a Shokunin through and through.
This is no longer about kata. From 1/10/19 onward it is about do. My job for the next 10 years is about perfecting the model of becoming a Domestic Rat.
It is not even about becoming a Wood Double Dragon. The dragon is a mythical creature. It can only be deployed on a grand scale. Being a dragon is high maintenance. Now, a Domestic Rat is neither a prey nor a predator. He is a scavenger. Thus I am perfecting that model by deploying Voluntary Simplicity. Instead of more or more expensive; the attribute of a dragon, I'll go with less or less frequent. Remember when I said that when a rat's food was reduced by 30% it lived 30% longer?
Well, that is what being a scavenger is all about. Since a dragon is a mythical creature, it can always morphed into a rat LOL.
I was on the phone with Sashi just now. This time instead of listening to his cock and bull story, I get him to commit some future support work to me. He can do it if he want to. These people can actually do it, it's a matter of whether they want to do it or not.
Now every time he calls I will press on the issue. I am not interested in talk cock sing song with anybody anymore. With you is different. I look at it as a leisure activity. I am not going to be doing what I did with Glen; over a glass of Chinese tea he exploited my time as a consultant.
Same with Sashi. He has an unlimited phone call service. So since nobody wants to listen to his ranting, he got me to listen to him. As if I have nothing else better to do.
My time is my time. I can do whatever I like with it. It's up to me to spend it the way I like it. Listening to other people is not in my agenda. I rather read or write.
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Come to think of it, I deplore spending hours at the coffee shops talking nonsense. That is considered a highly favorable activity among the Malaysian guys. I rather go for a walk or the movies than loafing around with the guys.
Seriously I rather be by myself.
Like I said, I am a loner. Maybe I am a minority here but that is fine with me. What I am saying is if it's not going to translate into something tangible, I rather be with you. Nothing complicated at all. With others I need to constantly sieve the gems from the garbage whenever I listen to them.
You probably doing the same thing with me but hey, I'm having fun here.
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I already know how to write my life story from here on. Nothing complicated as doing a feasibility study to start a franchise in 6 different countries but this is my life. I think I nailed it. Now is about earning RM1000 a month sitting in the CCC. If I can do it it will be a major improvement for me financially. Otherwise no big deal.
Honestly I'm not counting on Sashi to give me any support work. I just wanted to get him off my back.
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