>>>#15/11/19 This might as well be the end of the road for me and Legion X

I am probably a narcissist at best but that is because I refuse to conform.  There is no value for me to conform at this point of time.

If there is such a value in conforming, then it is the need for somebody to bury me when I'm dead.  Otherwise I don't need the society and the society don't need me.

What's the point of social interaction anyway?  I got everything I need here in my 12 meters square.  Most importantly I don't need to spend money to socialize.  I can do so in the comfort of my CCC.

Perhaps eventually you too will get tired of me.  I don't know, I'm just speculating.  In a way I don't create any value to the society with the exception of Dreams of Mirrors.  In the scheme of things I am a Nothing.  That's my aspiration.

By being a Nothing, I am Everything.  As Everything I am back to a Nothing.  This is my ultimate realization.  Therefore to be everything I always wanted to be, I got to g[e] back to my roots; back to being a man fully functioning.  To do that I need to just think about my aspiration to be thin and fast.

I am not the only one with this kind of attitude.  Most people who are pursuing personal excellence are like that.  Bruce Jenner was like that when he was training for the Olympics.  He cannot afford to have distractions.  Nicole David was also like that.  That is the mark of a champion.  They are like racing horse with blinders.  Micheal Phelps, Lance Armstrong, Micheal Jordan and Dean Karnazes are the few that I can think of.

I am not saying I am at par with those champions but what I'm saying is that's what it takes to achieve your dream.  You cannot be a social animal to reach for the stars.  Eagles fly alone.  A warrior walks alone.

I only need a handful of people for me to interact with.  I don't need the whole village.  Lizzie is like that too.  In that sense I am a solitary creature.  I rather write and read rather than chat with people.  I have to accept that I am a minority here.

Bill Ver 3.0 rather spend his time reading.  In my case I rather write.  At least when I write I am creating.

So what do you gain from this experience?  Nothing and everything I hope.

This is a journey towards enlightenment.  Which means I am sharing with you the realization as it is unfolded onto me.  I am not going to pretend it to be something else.  What's the point anyway?

You should expected this from the very beginning.  An apple tree will bear apples.  It cannot bear oranges.

So if you want to exit, this is a good time.  I am nothing more than a selfish, self-centered narcissist.

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Here is your lullaby baby:

Goodnight Sarah...  I love you so much.

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