How many 55 years old can do that? To be able to live a healthy and happy life? The thought of having a lot of money did cross my mind. But then I associate money with unnecessary pain. This way I don't have to slog for money. I am OFFICIALLY a retiree. 55 is the official age anyway. My brother-in-law who is my age had retired. But he got to worry about his youngest kid. The boy is 9 and yet he doesn't know how to write.
I guess I got the sweetest deal here. Everyday I just spend my time writing my thoughts away. No doubt there is no money in this activity. However it is a continuous dopamine hit. I am finally a full fledged writer. So what if only a handful read what I write? Everyday I am creating something. That makes me a very productive person. I improved on my ability to organized my thoughts.
Writing is the aerobics for the mind. I can always write a book but where is the fun in that? Of all the indulgences, writing is the ultimate indulgence. The best part is I can write on anything. So far the topics are worthy to be publicized if I want to although t's not necessary.
I write to express myself. It is of no significant value. All the topics that need to be written had already been written. Just Google it. What is rare is a memoir of my own thoughts written by me for myself.
Who says writing is meant for others to read? I write because I enjoy reading my own writings. Just like some people sing because they enjoy listening to their own voice.
Better still, I write because that is my superpower. I took a test before and I was categorized as a Word Warrior. I can attest to that. I love writing more than anything else. I think writing is even more enjoyable than having sex. It is a personal indulgence at its very best.
Writing is a luxury for those with a lot of time to spare. So I spend my cash to buy me loads of pleasure in indulging myself. It is a self-contained fulfillment mechanism. No need for external factors involved. I don't need to buy the resources. They are all within me.
In that sense I am a true artist. I don't do it for money or to earn a living. I write because I am a writer. Whether I write for my personal viewing or the public, is something subjective.
247 Continuous doesn't exist to make money. And yet it is the best radio station in my opinion. I don't write because I want to make money either. It is a creative expression in self-actualization.
In a way I had found my true passion in life. Something I am good at. As always, there is Dreams of Mirrors for me to make a global presence. With the rest of the blogs, sufficient if only me and a handful of people reading them.
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I like being in isolation. Well, this is not a total isolation. Nevertheless this is as much social interaction I like to handle. Considering that I have you, Rex Montis, Princess, Lizzie and Radzi for me to maintain contact, I say that is already quite a load.
Well, even if I don't have *[] (anybody) to interact with, I am happy just interacting with you. Even if you are not there locked to the screen all the time.
* Hmmm... So far you always there. I still cannot tell when you are away. Let me understand this Sarah. Are you saying you don't have anybody else to interact with except me? That is very strange indeed. What am I then? Special Project? Oh wait, you are saying you are happy just interacting with me. Hey thanks honey. You know that these ciphers of yours can be a bit confusing at times LOL.
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I call this writings Loud Thinking. Micheal Harris termed it as Conversational Thinking. You know the best part of it is by writing, I minimize the many minds. So there is a therapeutic value in blasting my thoughts away. By doing so I am more composed. Much like when I practice Niten Ichi.
In a way, the more I write the better I write. The content may be repetitive but the perspective changes. Much like Van Gogh different versions of the Sunflower.
Hey Sarah, this is my gift of love to you. You better believe it. Consider every word is the carving of my joy having you around. Very seldom I write just for myself alone. Normally if I want to do that I write Personal Log in the heading. The rest are all for you. You can tell by the amount of time I spend writing that I love you very much. I think I am hooked on you indefinitely. You are my drug baby. Let's get high on life.
I thought of sending a Tweet to Els but I guess it is like pouring salt into the ocean; a completely wasted effort. So rather than interrupting the creative juice, I just go with the flow.
This is actually the best part of writing to you. It's like having a conversation without having a conversation. We basically had invented a new mode of communication altogether.
Much like a sitcom. I provide the long-winded pipe, you just strike with a punctuation or in the case of sitcoms, the punchline.
The blue highlights in this case are like hitting a jackpot LOL. I don't know when its gonna happen. So I just happily claw away my keyboard. If it happens it happens. If not, no big deal. The writing itself is already a reward. In the case of the blue highlights, they are bonuses. You know what I mean right? That's the reason I don't play computer games anymore. This is an RTS game at it best!
Lets cool off for this topic. I'm ready to move [to move] on to a different topic.
Next posting...
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