I believe I had reached the height of my apex with Dreams of Mirrors. Either I create an impact of being a genius or I basically exposed my madness for everybody to see.
It's basically 2 faces of the same coin. Therefore I am not too concern with the judgement of others. That's w[as] (what) a paradigm pioneer is; to break the mental shackle of the few who are looking for the answer. As for the masses, they will be jolted by their own prejudices but they will proceed on the same tangent.
Everybody has their own groove that they follow. People never change. If my purpose of publishing the posting is for people to take action, then the measure of the effectiveness is on the effort, not on the final outcome.
It takes ages for us to correct a derailed belief system. So I am not expecting a quick win. Perhaps the best I can do is by publishing the postings is for me to stay true to my own Personal Flight.
I gotta go, meeting Mopey in campus.
In the afternoon I am a lot freer.
Later baby...
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This was my conversation with Master Jedi:
[1:20 PM, 11/29/2019] sharudinj: Master Jedi, you better tell me if I had gone crazy, I am exposing myself with all these writings: https://sharudinjamal.blogspot.com/2019/11/291119-omad-day-53-i-was-down-and-more.html
[1:24 PM, 11/29/2019] Norazdi: No one can understand.. until he has lost his mind..
Therefore, to those who don't understand... You are crazy..
Are you? Only you knows you ...
http://nj-behindtheveil.blogspot.com/2019/09/no-one-can-understand-this.html?m=1
[1:26 PM, 11/29/2019] sharudinj: Thank goodness for being there to be my sanity check Master Jedi
So now I have a few people who believe in me. Munek is one and Nellie is another. I better drop Nellie a line and see her response.
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This journey is perilous just because I was a Stone Worshiper and I cannot say I am God. That is the highest order of blasphemy.
In the past, the punishment is death. So imagine how shocking this revelation is to them.
I am definitely an apostate now that I openly declare I am God. So I am waiting for the crap to hit the fan with the Stone Worshipers.
My argument is if they try to meddle with this matter is I am not on Malaysia's platform. I am on Blogspot.com which is an international platform. I am not writing to the Malay audience.
Otherwise I can always go with the insanity plea LOL.
So nobody gonna bother me. I have a letter from my doctor saying that I am a Bipolar Disorder patient.
I used that letter on IRD and they never bother me ever since.
So forget about converting the Stone Worshipers. I am [] (not) interested in converting anybody. I just want to express myself. Some people express though art and music. As a Word Warrior my creative expression is through writing.
As long as I am allowed that freedom, I will happily be on my own way not bothering anybody. I think most people know that.
I am sure 247 Continuous is Cybernetic Looping me. This song is on air:
Unsteady - X Ambassadors
This is really great. I am not alone at last. I got you, I got those who believe in me and now I got 247 Continuous. Everything I need to continue passing through the pinhole of Mushin No Shin.
As you can see from what I had written, my existence is not linear. I can travel to the future and the past.
See? They are Cybernetic Lopping me. This song is on air:
Dreamer - Martin Garrix
So I am living in the Eye of the Tornado. While everything around me is chaotic, here I am in a very calm and peaceful oasis right in the middle of the hustle and bustle of super urban Bandar Utama.
At the empiric is just you and 247 Continuous. I cannot imagine life without these two elements. It will be very bland.
As for TraXX, they are now my Wild Cards. They are no longer my Ace in the Hole. I cannot be playing a guessing game. It has to be moving with certainty. The only way is for me to control directly the quality of my information. That I do with Twitter and Dreams of Mirrors.
I should not rely on anybody to execute my own agenda. If it is to be then it is up to me. My job is to translate my thoughts into action. That is what I am doing really.
Give and spend, God will send. So far that had been true for me as far as idea generation is concerned. I had not reached the end of the road yet although I must say that we had arrived at the summit.
Where do we go from here? As you recall in Forrest Gump, when he reached t[o] end of the road, he turned back and continue running to the opposite direction. In my case it is back to the Vision Quest.
That's the part about this journey. We need to keep on running for the next 22 years. We need to be physically, mentally and emotionally fit.
Occasionally we hit a speed bump like what happened to me last night. Luckily I recovered this morning. I almost wanted to abandon the blog altogether. Imagine if that happens. I would have lose the entire posting about Sparta 4964. That will be a complete waste of being in isolation altogether.
Not only that, I will lose tou[g]h (touch) with you. The synchronicity will be interrupted and we will lose the momentum we had built for the past 3 years. Hence I decided to put off reading until a more appropriate time. Keeping in contact with you is more important.
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#traxxfm Hey the Muhibbah Trio, I got a couple of hours with you before I am back to my daily grind. Can you spin either Unsteady by X Ambassadors or Dreamer by Martin Garrix? By 7:00 pm I'll be gone.
I actually like unsteady by x ambassadors
#traxxfm Folks, whatever it is I am done zo with my work for the entire 2019. However I still got one month to go for my Vision Quest.
OK they are in a celebratory mood. They played Daddy Cool by Boney M and Sinaran by Sheila Majid.
#traxxfm Well, well, well... I want to perasan a bit. Daddy Cool is me, Sinaran is also meant for me. I think December will be awesome!
There... that should be my dose of Oxytocin for the day.
Actually I can hit real hard but I hold my punches. What do you think honey? Should I carry on goofing around?
#traxxfm So it's retro Friday? Is that it? Then I change my request to Donna Summer Hot Stuff. Can you play that?
OK, that's all for today...
I got one hour before I switch back to 247 Continuous.
#traxxfm OK this is the last one... Gosh I can't decide. Are you familiar with the story of Pygmalion? What about the Ecstasy of St Teresa?
In her autobiography, The Life of Teresa of Jesus (1515–1582). Her experience of religious ecstasy in her encounter with the angel is described as follows:
Beautiful sculptures...
#traxxfm Well, since you all are such a good sport today, I hangout for another hour. I suppose Sarah can wait.
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This is a 3 points shot:
This is your wake up call. I know what you did last summer. I tried talking to
since 2016, no go. Running out of option in the Last Kingdom
#traxxfm Avoir sharudinjamal.blogspot.com
since 2016, no go. Running out of option in the Last Kingdom
#traxxfm Avoir sharudinjamal.blogspot.com
I cannot mobilize the Twin Dragons until 2024.
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