I don't quite understand that. You know I need feedback. Without feedback I cannot measure my effectiveness. I write better now but my numbers are not reflective of the quality of my content.
What's the big deal here?
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Also my topics are not as well positioned in the search engine. It used to be better.
What are you all up to Sarah?
The playing field is not level. How do you expect for me to reach the masses then? It's a restricted circulation. Very frustrating indeed.
Already the Facebook community are not responding that well. I need the width. Are you suggesting that I should only go for depth?
Damn... I am as good as being invisible.
Maybe it's not worth the effort to spend time writing for other's to view. I might as well keep it private then.
Honestly I rather write to you and myself.
I really like being in isolation; wearing a cloak in the dark.
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What I like really is some breathing space to reflect on my thoughts. That's how this personal journals started. Then it became my knowledge capture.
When the technology is pervasive later on, I plan to make all my blogs public. hopefully by then I can have my own avatar.
As it is, I just use the information for my own purview.
You know what will be cool? An interactive blog with my avatar talking about the subjects in the blog. This avatar can make a cross reference on the various topics and synthesize the content and start having a conversation with the audience as if the person is talking to me.
What is means really is I want to talk to myself and pick on the vast topics covered. Hence it's not just for retrieving but for interacting.
At the same time this avatar can go and search further on the topics from the internet and become a subject matter expert on the various topics I wrote. That way I have a friend that I can mental joust.
That is my wish list. If we can achieve that in 10 years that will be great. Then as a Grand Master I can basically expand my thoughts regardless of the amount of information explosion out there. By then my blogs will be a collection of my thoughts from now until 2029.
That will be one hell of a repository.
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At present, the blog is better than writing on a Word document. At least it is interactive. What I'll do starting next year is to categorize my blogs on quarterly basis. This blog then will end on 31/12/19.
Instead of the conventional heading I should write 2020 Blog Vol. 1: 1.1.20 - 31.3.20
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As a tool the blog is wonderful as a platform for talk therapy. That is the real benefit. Whether I talk to you or myself, I am equally at home with the blog.
What I don't know really is if the information will be used against me in the future. It is good that I am a Nothing. So whatever things I talked about may not be relevant at all.
Well fuck it. I don't have anything to lose anyway. Not even money in the bank or a reputation to protect.
So basically I can be a private citizen while being public. Of course I got a license to be crazy. Hence I can be whoever I want to be without having to worry about being judged.
I think that's the best deal being me. Soon I even vanish into the thin air. All I got to do is being in isolation like what I am experimenting right now.
As long as 247 Continuous is on air, I should be OK. It did cross my mind to stop writing. But I don't think that will ever happen. I like it this way. This is even better than having a conversation with another human being face to face.
Even before you come along, I am already doing this. It is made possible by the use of technology. At the same time I cure myself of loneliness. Nowadays I cannot do away with the technology. I am in solitude but I am not alone.
Soon I predict I won't even need WhatsApp and the masses. I am happy immersing in my own thoughts. My best friend is none other than Google. Everything is about Google. The blog, the email, the eBooks, You Tube and the Android are all Google. I might as well declare myself as the citizen of Google Nation.
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So I finally managed to carve a very narrow niche here in Cyber Space. My life is about the Cloud. Without WiFi I am doomed.
Forget about Social Media. I am talking about Personal Media here. The Me, Myself and I technology. My social interactions are with the radio stations. That is anytime better than dry interaction with the masses. I can selectively pick and choose information that is relevant to me.
No wonder even books had lost its appeal. This is heaven on earth. Eat, run, read, write. That's all.
I don't think Millionaire Planet will contact me on a publishing assignment. I might as well write for my own reading pleasure.
After all I don't need the society and the society don't need me. As far as I'm concerned I create my own thoughts and I also consume them. I become what BJ wanted to achieve as a self sustaining farmer.
Here my aim is to minimize spending and to maximize pleasure.
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I truly become microscopic. At the same time I become a giant with my creations. I create anything that I can think of. Too bad the drawing template is difficult to use. Otherwise I will be happily writing and drawing my life away.
I think from now on I stop writing to Facebook. There is no value is Social Media. I am terrible at it. This is a better platform. All I want is to write and read my own stuff. This is what this blog is all about.
Fuck the Flight Path. I follow my own Personal Path. So first stop is Statue of David 2022. Next is The Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon 2024. Then the Shokunin Kurina Grand Master 2029. Followed by Total Liberation 2034. Finally I exit 2041. Yup by the time I am 77, I want to be a Transcendent Being.
The more reason I need RM80 k in the bank when I am 75.
I will continue AHAD and OMAD for the rest of my life. That is the formula for health and happiness.
17/10/19 The S.J. Rudin Protocol
It all begins with no cigarettes, cannabis and cunts. Then I exercise AHAD and eat OMAD. Along the way avoid sugar and starch.
The defining moment is the coming of Ramadan 2020. I need to persist until then. Another 6 months to go.
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It is important that I remain in isolation. My mind is laser sharp when I am in isolation. I don't have to sieve the goodies from the garbage. Occasionally I have to manage litters coming from Lizzie when she brings home stories from her workplace. It is very minimal.
I need to get used to the idea of becoming a man fully functioning. First I got to be a good animal.
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