When I shake off Nicorette I slept more soundly. I woke up early too.
Today's morning walk is fantastic. I was committed. Not until I came across Ar Razi. To avoid meeting him again on the second loop I went for the inner circle twice for my second loop.
Indeed I am doing OMAD today. I had been skipping OMAD close to 2 weeks now. In between I only managed to do it for one day.
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I'll read this morning.
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While listening to the Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind audiobook, I did 20 minutes of zazen.
Now, I try to do zazen on daily basis while listening to the audiobook.
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I feel like listening to Rex, bur I persisted. No more TraXX. This is commitment. This is being congruent.
This is my Problem Statement:
Because I lack the discipline, I am not committed. Therefore I am not persistent. Hence I cannot endure the hardship of sticking to my decision. Which leads to [b]e being inconsistent with my words and actions.
What I should do is to cut off from all possibilities. What is done is done. Just move on. If not I said one thing and I do the opposite thing. There is no congruence. I end up becoming indecisive.
So what do I need?
I need to be DECISIVE. That I get from having a DEFINITENESS OF PURPOSE.
What is my Definiteness of Purpose?
TO BE THIN AND FAST
That is all I need to focus on. Hence dealing with TraXX is a wasted effort. It doesn't lead to me in being thin and fast.
No matter how I twist and turn, I am back to AHAD and OMAD, my Holy Grail. Those are the means. The end is Health and Happiness. That is the peak of a man fully functioning.
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I managed to eat a hearty lunch. Therefore I am staying committed to OMAD today.
As I mentioned, without Nicorette my writing is ordinary and non-philosophical. That's how strong can substance effect our mind.
As a result, I am feeling ordinary too.
I cannot afford to chew Nicorette anymore. The RM5 levy per strip is too much. It will bust my RM100 cap per month. Hence I will quit nicotine for good.
Be prepared for the down cycle for the next 2 weeks or so.
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#traxxfm Don't mind me Rex. I'm so used to getting pointers from you that I have to come back to Momentum for my daily dose. Looks like your gig is the only one I am listening to for now.
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Today's lunch is super fantastic a true LCHF lunch. I washed it down with Nescafe with creamer. The feeling of healthy fat is fantastic. I am in full alert.
11.45 am Break Fast
[x]2 Eggs
[x]Beef
[x]Tempe
[x]Spinach
[x]3 Fish Oil
[x]MCT Oil
[x]Nescafe C Kosong
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I am missing the nicotine in my body. Right now the thought of smoking crossed my mind. This is a terrible addiction indeed. I can't smoke even a puff. If I do then I am back to being a smoker in no time.
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Although I quit cigarettes for almost a year now, I don't actually quit nicotine. So it is natural that I go through the nicotine withdrawal. It's pretty much like quitting cigarettes. The difference now is the memory on cigarettes smoking is weak. The feeling is towards chewing some gum. I think I'll buy some sugar free chewing gum.
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I got to endure the nicotine withdrawal if I want to be totally free.
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