So now I will do things ahead of time. I will leave the house 5 minutes before 7:00 am.
I am 87 kg today. That is about a 3 kg drop in 4 days. I am damn motivated. I still don't give up Nicorette. As long as I am producing result I just manage it little by little. I sill got some unfinished stock from yesterday.
I got to learn to type the right way today. I need to train on a new skill. This better be it.
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So here is the deal, basically dopamine controls the pleasure-reward pathway. So to keep myself motivated I need to keep my dopamine high NATURALLY. When I smoke pot, I create a huge surge in my dopamine production to the point I become psychosis. My illness is not just Bipolar but also drug induces psychosis.
I got to fight this issue that I have with dopamine. I need to make sure I get it at the right level so that I don't get into mania.
Definitely I cannot smoke cigarette and dope. Perhaps that's my body reaction to poison. I had not been eating right (I ate too much carbs) and I sleep in the wee hour of the morning. These are all the contributing factors that depleted my dopamine. As a result I literally went crazy!
I was not happy with my life and I was suffering from depression. Work was pretty stressful. I was also financially distressed. Eventually everything collapsed.
The single most relevant factor contributing towards this is I SMOKE POT AND CIGARETTE. I was poisoning my body directly. Who says it's just pot or cigarette? These are poisons. Pot especially alters perception.
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Today I feel my body is very clean form the inside. I feel light too. Although occasionally I feel like eating something (not that I am hungry) I feel very pleasant in the fasting state. Thus I look forward to my break fast at noon.
Definitely I will eat a lot of healthy fat today like I did the past 3 days. The formula is working. I am regulating the hormones and enzymes in my body. My bowel movement is good too. I think I found the right combination at last: OMAD + LCHF = Weight Reduction. AHAD + Cold Shower + Cold/Hot Drink + Good Music = Dopamine Hit.
This combination was discovered based on extensive research since 2013. After 6 years I finally had a breakthrough. Partly because I no longer smoke cigarettes and dope. That allows me to regulate my mood and cure myself from my various ailments.
Certainly those who smoke is at a loss if they had known better. Not only they are exposed to the risk of cancer, they are also subjected to mental illness.
Truly this past 20 years was a blessing. I was dealing with a MASSIVE problem:
- I had issues with cigarette and dope
- I was highly stressed from work
- I was financially distressed
- I eat too much carbs
- I didn't exercise
- I was overweight
- I was lethargic
- I sleep late at night
- I have many False Beliefs
- I delved into religion
- I had a huge void emotionally
- I waste too much money
- I was fucking hookers on regular basis
What did I do right nowadays?
- I sleep at 11:00 pm and wake up at 6:00 am everyday
- I drink black coffee without sugar
- I monitor my weight, blood pressure and heartbeat everyday
- I write the blog first thing in the morning
- I exercise AHAD at 7:15 am everyday
- I eat OMAD LCHF on weekdays
- I drink Nescafe C Kosong
- I take butter, MCT Oil, Fish Oil and Moringa
- I am emotionally secure
- I quit cigarettes and dope
- I am retired from working
- I paid all my debts including parking and speeding tickets
- I am losing 30 kg of weight
- I have a daily routine
- I listen to Absolute Classic Rock in the morning and 247 Continuous thereafter
- I read regularly
- I drink plenty of water
- Instead of fucking hookers I watch Pornhub
- I play tennis on alternate Sundays
- I no longer involved with External Affairs especially politics and religion
What do I need to improve?
- I got to quit Nicorette
- I got to quit sugar free gum
- I need to spend less money and save more
- I need to start the Mini Emperor's Routine
- I really like to run regularly on MWF
- I wish I can exercise am and pm
- I wish I can get rid of the eczema on my left elbow
- I got to get rid of the gout
- I wish I can cycle to Saujana on alternate Sundays when I don't play tennis
As a whole I am doing OK. I got rid of 13 issues, improved on 20 areas and have 9 more areas of improvement to go.
I feel damn good about the whole thing. I am winning the battle that I had fought for 20 years. This is a major achievement.
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I guess things are never simple with me. Otherwise I won't be coming out with a Personal Situational Analysis of myself.
Even with simplification I cannot be an absolute Nothing. Rather than a complete void, Nothing means t[he] be Everything I can ever be. Nothing is Everything and Everything is Nothing.
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I had a great meal today. I am so full but I'm not bloated.
12.00 pm Break Fast
[x]2 Eggs
[x]Beef
[x]Veges - Petola
[x]Tempe & Tofu
[x]Nescafe C Kosong
[x]Butter
[x]MCT Oil
[x]3 Fish Oil
[x]Moringa
Food is the ultimate drug. However you need to know what to eat and when. I surely tipped the scale today with 20% more than what I normally eat. The beef is very filling. Then I washed them down with Nescafe and creme. I eat so much and yet I'm not sleepy at all.
I'll wait for an hour and then I'll help myself with some peanut butter crackers and dark chocolate. The eating window is 2 hours.
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