This month is the turnaround month for me to move from being complex to being simple.
I think the illness had subsided. That is why I'm no longer feel the need to be a superlative. As it is I am happy to note that I like it this way. I may be everything I said I was but it is easy to keep on adding until the very utmost limit. The trick is to move on the opposite direction. To be a Minimalist Existentialist.
The temptation to smoke pot is there. However I need to remind myself that DOPE MAKES ME CRAZY. The thought I had when I was high is not a genuine thought. It was an altered perception. Thus I had a tendency to wander into absurdity.
The thought I need to have is the thought when I am physically fit. I cannot afford to let go of the buildup I am having now. As I get thinner, I am becoming fitter. Hence I got to observe the changes in the way I think.
For example I no longer have grandiose thoughts. I should take note of that and change accordingly. The aim is to be able to see things as what it is. Dope and cigarettes are poisons. They hinder my athletic performance and thus effect my thinking ability.
The idea of becoming a Bodhisattva is to live a clean life.
I need to keep purging False Beliefs until I am completely stable mentally. Too much past limiting beliefs were incorporated in my mind. The irony is, while I am deleting these beliefs, my mom is actively reinforcing them. Eventually me and my mom will be poles apart further widening the rifts between us.
I'm not going to expose myself to external stimulus unnecessarily like listening to the news and TraXX. While this remaining of 2019 is to reduce weight and push myself to run again, I also need to establish new habits to prepare myself to the upcoming Ramadan.
I will not be contacting anybody until I complete my isolation exercise. Already I am seeing the benefits. I no longer smoke cigarettes and dope. Better still, I don't contaminate my thoughts with clutters.
I only concentrate on being thin and fast. Running can be a lifelong undertaking. I can build a career around it especially if I intend to do it everyday for the rest of my life.
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I'm sure once I reach my goal I will have other things I can pursue. However I can envision myself improving my runs on daily basis for the next 22 years. Therefore I'm not worried in keeping my goals simple but attainable.
What counts is I am moving towards Health and Happiness. That doesn't require any complex thinking. As long as I stick with AHAD and OMAD I'll be OK.
Should [] (I) need complexity in my life all I need is to read books. Otherwise I won't bother to make things complicated. Simplicity is still the best policy.
I bet that's what Mo Farah is doing on daily basis. He trains, trains and keep on training until he perfected his kata. This movement from complexity to simplicity is part of the commitment to move from more or more expensive to less or less frequent.
So today while Lizzie is attending a luncheon, I decided to go for a Mall Walk in Putrajaya. It is better than I go and smoke pot with BJ.
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